Still waiting

I apologize for the delay between posts as I know many of you have been directed to our blog for updates. After the news of cancer on Friday, I believe our whole family, especially me, has been processing that news. It’s been overwhelming. Frightening. Disappointing. All-consuming. Downright difficult.

We want to thank you again from the depth of our souls for your support & encouragement through texts, emails, messages via family, and most of all, through your prayers. We are indebted for your willingness to join us in this unknown journey we never anticipated walking down. We know, that ultimately, the most powerful thing we can do now is pray and believe.

Please, please, please continue boldly approaching our Father’s throne for these requests . . .
- For a PET scan to be scheduled this week. Please pray for the cancer to be contained only in my forearm. Please pray it has not spread to my hand, upper arm or other parts of my body.
- For an accurate, conclusive pathology of my biopsy. At the moment, they are still testing a few strains and I should know results tomorrow morning as far as the specific type of tumor it is.
- For wisdom on the part of Dr. Smith, the pathologists, the hand specialist and other oncologists who will be discussing treatment & how to eradicate the cancer.
- For my post-op appointment, next Tuesday, April 23 at 10:30am. This will be the next time we will meet with Dr. Smith and talk next steps.
- For further testing to understand more fully the road ahead including MRIs, chest scans, etc . . .
- For the docs to be able to save my arm and its functionality.
- For peace & grace. For rest and trust. For belief in a God who sustains the entire universe by His word. That He would be holding me, protecting me, and ultimately performing a miracle in my body so He alone will receive the glory.
- We would also appreciate prayers for our sweet little family, especially Alexa Hope who definitely knows something isn’t right. I want her to feel safe, secure, and know with confidence God is healing Mommy’s arm.
- Pray against fear & the unknown especially in this waiting and especially at night.

**Also, if anyone could provide us with a great resource or recipes for high-calorie meals and/or shakes that would be packed with the vitamins, minerals, protein, iron, etc, I will need in the days ahead. I’ve already lost a few pounds from anxiety and the waiting. I need to be as healthy & strong as possible heading into the next stage of fighting.

Thank you again for being a part of our team. For fighting with us on your knees. We could not do this without you. I promise a more spiritual blog is coming. The Lord is still speaking to me even in what seems to be the midst of despair, I’m just not capable of forming words & making my hand work well right now.

For now, I’ll leave you with this encouraging note sent from my brother-in-law’s uncle. Thank you Uncle Richard! I’m sorry so many folks are having difficulty commenting on the blog. I’ll ask my techy husband about that.

There comes to mind a quotation from Alan Redpath in his book Victorious Christian Living which goes as follows,

“There is nothing… no circumstance, no trouble, no testing… that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ, right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose, which I may not understand at the moment. But as I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow will ever disturb me, no trial will disarm me, no circumstance will cause me to fret, for I shall rest in joy of what my Lord is. That is the rest of victory.”